What you think today is what you live tomorrow.

Living for the day is what most of us do to get by. I am no longer living in that state. My vision for my future is clear and focused and cannot be stopped. There maybe some obstacles but that's just Ra's way to create another learning opportunity. I realized how much I lived for the day until I moved.

The breaking point for me was I listening to Michael Baisden show and there was a man on there giving his philosophy on "The Secret". (I was driving down Mockingbird Lane in Highland Park. I was admiring all of the homes and I thought Bush lives here...hell to the no) I digress... I am always open to listen to how people incorporate their secret into their lives. He made a great point that forever changed how I think about everyone and everything. He said "If you have 9 broke friends, you will be the 10th". I laughed for about five minutes, but I stopped and said "you know he's right".

This began a 6 month checking in with my self, my spirit. I believe in ancestral power and I know they send me signs all the time BUT if I am not open to listen I won't get the message. I know now that my ancestors work in my favor at all times. Why wouldn't your grandma want what is best you..she did when she was alive. The feeling that is connected to my ancestors is how you should feel about your power. Protection, warmth, love is what I am working with.

My ancestors sent me my new love, my child, everyone that loves me and is there to empower me. Recently I reconnected with an old friend with new aspect on her life. My ancestors sent me her because I didn't need any more emotionally, financially, spiritually broke people. She made me realize what kind of person I used to be. Everything I was in past was great but there is a reason I abandoned it. I was mean and negative. Now there I said it, I am not happy when others say it to me, but I can deal with what I put out. At this point I must learn to balance my aggressiveness with a sweet disposition. I have always been an Alpha female as long as I can remember existing. I take the world by the horns and I used to have no regrets. During this reinvention of myself, I must remember my focus and attack my destiny with the fervor of a 25 year old Zenobia with NO regrets. Redirect that energy into my career, my love, my destiny, no matter what.

I am glad to be blog about this part of my life because I hope that someone can benefit from my life experience. This is also keeping record of my transition and 1 year later I want to look back at this and say "damn you did good woman". Most of the blog is for you the reader but this also for myself to explain what I am feeling and how I worked thru my own personal shit.

I am taking a hiatus from people right now. I know that I need this time to heal and lick my wounds of this bird. As I make my grand entrance to the front of line of life...I only want applause no pity, only well wishers, no haters. What I think about my life today is what I will live tomorrow.