Taking out the old...bringing in the new

At the beginning of my relationship, you would have never told me in a million years that i would be starting over. However at 35 I'm up for the challenge. Getting rid of old habits and things is a way of starting over on a life that is halfway done. Forgiving yourself is a way of starting a new attitude.

The other day I was talking to one of my old dear friends that has known me since my single days. She asked me what happened to my swagger? I was like I guess I lost it in the couch cushions between 25 and 35. So, this article about how to get your shit back in order. There's no formula but as I do this, I will give you what I plan on doing.

Dating

Going out with different men could be life changing, you can see what's on the market. Right now, I have a man (i think..he's mad at me). And he's truly this wonderful dream guy. He got the intelligence, humor, gorgeous and very motivated. At this point in my life I need a man that is motivated by his dreams and goals. That's something that is bringing in the new..the old is not motivated at all. I see why women ended dating assholes because they are the ones that tend to be goal oriented. Also with my present relationship, I was afraid to be vulnerable but I may have hurt myself more by not being that way. That's my old behavior rearing its a ugly horns. Allowing yourself to loved is wonderful thing..that is bringing in the new. I wish my man knew how wounded I was, but I don't want to dwell on the past and nor does he.

Exercise

This should be a focal point of your everyday or every other day activity. I find that working out give the body a sense of purpose and release the stress during a most stressful time. And you proving to yourself that you can look good those pre preggo jeans. Since I have started gaining my life back, I have lost 15 lbs. I work out like a mad man. Right now, I don't have a car or a job but I works out everyday, I take 3 buses just to get the gym! I am determined to lose 50 lbs no matter what!

Spirituality

This has always been a part of my life and I have always been connected to the most high in one way or another. I believe that your worship to the most high is an individual choice. I believe that prayer does change things and if you don't want to do that meditate. Meditation is a way to connected with your inner spirit. You find your highest destiny when you do.

Love

Yes I said it..love. Love yourself, love your children, love your ex husbands and boyfriend and you will find that love will return to you. I am finding this out so late in the game, but it is true. I don't have a lot of experience in love but I want to experience it first hand with a real man. I don't know how to love and apparently if I did know love I messed it up. My man (hopefully still) is completely in love with me but I steady push him away. Why? I did a checklist about why I push away from love. I am able to reject love quicker than I can accept it. Here I have my dream guy and I run away. WTF? Well I realized that I didn't love myself. How deep is that realization? But going forth is that I deserve to be love and someone to experience the love I have to give as well. When I love, I love hard though. But when its gone..its fuckin gone. My advice if a man says he loves you..love him back.